and the other needle is my new lil frog tattoo from an amazing comic that’s my favorite in “graphic fiction”…such a good comic.

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Here’s some news, i’m leaving my new york city.
i’m departing probably in early march.
moving upstate to get steroid injections, but a temporary relief for a pinched nerve in my back.
hopefully ill get surgery to get rid of this awful thing that’s tormented me for the past two years.
i really mean tormented!!!!!!!!!!
it was a work related injury. what happened was i fell down some stairs at babycakes, and went to several doctors and went through two bouts of physical therapy and endless amounts of drugs only to have my doctor ACTUALLY BELIEVE ME a month ago and get me a SECOND MRI which confirmed i had a pinched nerve. this shouldve healed in a couple weeks, but for reasons, it just didn’t. it’s caused so much anxiety and pain in my life that i cry everytime i even try describing it. i can’t sit for more than 15 minutes to draw at a time. i tried yoga, i tried HOT yoga, i tried regular exercize and stretches along with the annoying invasive physical therapies i stayed so positive about.
let’s list just SOME of the medications i’ve been on in the last two years resulting from this injury:
(which by the way, i refused to take ANY medicine for any sickness i’ve ever had before.)

-lyrica (the worst)
-nabumetone
-methocarmabol
-meloxicam
-xanax (also the worst)

the pain would still chronically radiate and freeze my left arm, left shoulder, and neck.
the worst part in my own brain is that i had to do it all on my own. i had to go through crazy anxieties in my own brain going from believing myself to not believing myself while forcing myself to communicate with two worker’s compensation advisors and all the doctors in my path, repeating my story over and over, through all of my pain. and i was working the entire time, never complaining.
the news is relieving, but real.
the pain has made me a completely cynical and angry person. it’s created an anxiety in my life that’s caused conflict in friendships and other aspects of my social life. i’ve said to my real husband keith, many times, that i wish he had met me before i fell down those stairs.
i mean, can you even imagine what it’s like to suffer such pain for two years without anyone really believing you? to the point where it convinces you that maybe they’re right? and that you should give up? it’s the most difficult thing i’ve endured ever.
have you ever broken a bone or pulled something and wondered what it would be like when you’re 80?
have you ever been wary of the future because you realize that you can’t bear to see yourself in pain and working as hard as you once had?
all of these anxieties have played through my mind thousands of times.
i HAVE to move because i CANNOT work anymore with this pain in my life, which i now know is not something that’s just a manifested injury in my own mind. i want to rest and keep my family company.

i feel horrible that i’m leaving new york, but this is the only way. i’ll be back, and i am also considering philadelphia as an option. i really liked it there.

i am happy that this is the end of my journey in pain, well actually, i hope so.

anywho, next time i post hopefully it’ll be a comic, or a recap of my last month in new york.

i love you, y’all.
xx

it ends in garfield, whom i had never drawn before, really.

here’s today’s first page including:

a sensitive cowboy
leopard
david bowie
seagull

first i travelled to canada to be with keith and his family in victoria and vancouver.

then i got really sick and it turned out to be plain old anxiety (????)

now keith is gone in canada because of immigration and i’m here alone wallowing in netflix.

boi oio oioioi OING!

if you’d like to have a check-in, sally madden my lovely dear wrote an article for THE COMICS JOURNAL about what some lady cartoonists in NY did this year and i am in the article. what did i do this year? who knows.

the brooklyn comics and graphics fest was fun. thank you everyone who came.

i also recently judged at PARSONS for the senior’s illustration thesis show. that made me feel like a grown-up.

anywho, i hope to check-in soon once the depression subsides, or whatever feelings feel like.

xo forever,
lizz

it’s called “ladies night” featuring my true romance comics and my new cosmo comic!!!!

i’m making linoleum and glitter covers as we speak.

i’ll be selling them at the BROOKLYN COMICS AND GRAPHICS fest in williamsburg on december 3rd (google it)

along with issues of “suck it” and some old carol jeremy danny zines that i’m re-making.

and prints!!!!!!!!!!! cheap prints!!! yippee kiyaya!

P.S I’M READING MY COMICS OUTLOUD AT LUCA LOUNGE in NYC on NOVEMBER 22nd! yipeee!!!!! see you there with michael kupperman and kate beaton and julia wertz and lauren weinstein!!! dominate…

i decided to make a comic about a brief article i read in cosmo, making jokes about each point made in the magazine.

it’s called, along with my comic, “FIVE THINGS NOT TO DO AFTER A BREAK-UP”

i’m gonna post snippets of it, including the cover (below) but y’all are gonna see the real deal at the brooklyn comics and graphics fest!!!!! heeheeeee